Love and Fear

“There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love. We love because He first loved us.” 1 John 4:18-19

“We love because He first loved us” – This is not the first occurrence of this phrase. The repetition of this idea means it is important. The tendency of many Christians is to interpret this notion as an obligation (i.e. Because he loves us we now HAVE to love others). It is His love that inspires us, it does not obligate us. It is His love that empowers us, because if we were to give our love it would be conditional and shallow. God’s love is unconditional and deep. If we truly recognize the depth of his love – that he would love me despite myself – I am going to want to share this love and acceptance to others. Love is the great equalizer, by recognizing God loves me despite myself, I recognize I have no room to not love others. I am no better than anyone else. Human beings are typically a fickle lot. We tend not to give ourselves the “benefit of the doubt” we give other people, but we also are guilty of thinking ourselves more highly than we ought. The psychological side of me understands that we take these vacillating stances of ourselves to avoid feeling anxiety or guilt.

“There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.” -- What keeps us from completely loving? Fear (a.k.a. anxiety). While this passage most definitely is social in nature, we tend to make the social focus more about loving the poor, needy, and those we find unlovable. This is certainly true! However, we must also keep in mind that this passage applies to our home; those closest to us. Fear keeps us from completely loving our spouse and children. Fear keeps us from loving those extended family members that have hurt us. The most common fears are: rejection, being hurt again, and losing control. These fears push people away from us, while love draws us closer. “Fear involves punishment” can mean that we fear punishment (e.g. being rejected and hurt) or use fear to withdraw love and inflict punishment. The effect is the same, creating emotional distance which goes against what we truly want which is to be loved and accepted deeply and unconditionally.

CLARIFICATION: I am not suggesting that we become “doormats” (esp. with regard to leaving abusive relationships).

Good Book, Bad Movie, Better Understanding

There are some good books that have been made into some pretty lousy movies. For example: "The Firm" = good book, bad movie; "Running with Scissors" = great book, lame movie; "Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil" = very interesting book, terrible movie I turned off 45 minutes into it; "The Kite Runner" = phenomenal book!, haven't seen the movie but CAN'T be as good as the book. The list could go on, and on, and on. To the people who have never read the books, the movies might be great, but there is little disagreement if you are a reader, that the book is nearly always better.

Why is that?

There are several reasons people can give including trying to narrow down a 500 page book into a 2 hr. (these days 1.5 hrs at twice the cost - but lets not go there!) movie, and the beauty of imagination versus interpretation on screen. As I reflected on my own reason for disappointment with movies over books, I realized that one of the aspects of books that establishes intimacy and meaning between the characters and the readers is the insight the author gives to character motivations -- Understanding why they did what they did. The movie watchers don't get that privilege and often are left somewhat confused just seeing the behaviors on screen without the benefit of knowing what lies underneath that behavior.

This is true with couples and families as well. Often we are left simply watching our spouse's (or children's) movies -- confused and often making incorrect assumptions that can lead to tense situations. Many arguments can be avoided simply by asking, "why" or "what were you thinking?". Even better, we should be able to offer to our partners some insight to our motivations and thoughts. Allowing others to "read our books" can lead to better understanding and deeper intimacy.

Sweet 16

Today I have been married to my incredible wife for 16 years. The cool thing about being married on January 1 is that every new year together is literally a new year. There are "uncool" thinigs about being married on January 1. Such as the busyness of the holiday season interfering with a true celebration of the years spent together and the hit our budgets take at Christmas usually makes for anniversaries that are not marked with the kinds of gifts we would like to give. However, we do make time for a night out after the fact. Time with just my wife is something I cherrish and is increasingly more rare the older our children become.

One of the strengths of our marriage is that we have usually communicated about those important things. We talked and prayed about uprooting our family and leaving what was familiar in 2001 and beginning a very new and often stressful time in our lives. We have talked about the need to "go easy" on the anniversary gifts because of Christmas and the need to be sacrifical with some of our time alone to be more involved and devoted to our children during this important stage of their development. Now, that doesn't mean we always agree on everything, but one thing I can say about us as a couple is that in 16 years I don't remember either of us yelling and screaming at the other when angry. And believe me, I am not the easiest person to live with (no comments from the peanut gallery please). Respect and love for one another have been cardinal traits of this relationship. I cannot say thank you enough to her.

The apostle Paul reminds us if we are to boast it is to boast in and about Christ. He is the One I give the credit for these 16 years. It is his sustaining and overflowing grace that has brought us to and through all these years. He has blessed me with an incredibly kind, loving, gentle, extension of himself in Laurie. I cannot imagine life without her, nor would I want to. He teaches me through her on an almost daily basis. Plus, she is smokin' hot!